"HN comments are _NOT_ going to help debugging your mental state" ... I mean in aggregate, sure. But of course there could be people that are offering useful advice, in a well meaning way - that could actually help OP. You're being really negative here, and I think it's unwarranted.
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It is when folks like you come around and vomit this kind of thing.
And just as quickly he was pulled back into the crab bucket.