I also struggled immensely in the early days.

For me there was no turning point. Just a realisation one day that the good was outweighing the bad, and it had been for a while.

> I look forward to all the things I could do for her.

Look forward to the things you can do for her today, and then do them! My baby used to love an evening walk in a front-facing carrier. We'd watch the sun set, the street lights come on, and the headlights of the cars driving by. She'd wiggle in the carrier with unbridled excitement.