Yeah, similar situation for me. All the promises of an optimistic sci-fi future become hollow when one remembers that the person espousing them is openly and actively opposed to those optimistic ideals.
Even just the disingenuous boosting of obvious lies that are convenient to his worldview (claiming genuine curiosity), by a supposedly intelligent man, is gross enough.
It has me wonder how much he wants those futures or just knows they are very good vehicles for fundraising, because his personal business model seems to be more based on fundraising and stock price than profits.
Ever since the pivot to having SpaceX go public, claiming Mars plans would be taking a back seat, and burdening SpaceX with X, I am convinced it is just about fundraising. He broke pretty much every promise about SpaceX's long term ambition.
Maybe he did once believe in these things, but he has definitely changed on that now.
Pie-in-the-ski, "humanity needs this so we survive the next 10,000 years" ideas are not good vehicles for fundraising.
Depends on your crowd. He doesnt often sell them as 10,000 year Long Now projects but that he'll achieve 10,000 year projects in 2 years.