> I have a great psychiatrist who has me on antidepressants, anti-anxiety meds, and mood stabilizers.

One of the things that has happened to be several times on different meds is a compression of emotional peaks and valleys.

The highs don't feel nearly as high but the lows don't feel as low, either.

This situation for you is going to take a lot of time to work through.

I wish you the best of luck.