Still doesn't wanna make me do it in public.

grow up and learn to steel yourself

No: grow up and realize that expressing an emotion is neither childish nor shameful.

It's such a young person thing to believe the adrenaline of pushing against the envelope is a better feeling than the endorphins of expressing appropriate emotion. I'm sure they'll learn this when they come of age.

Life can be painful, and comfort, solace, and community are really nice when you're on the downswing instead of the upswing, which happens to all of us if you're strong enough to live that long.

Community is having to deal with way too many unauthentic brainless people.

Categorizing some of the most meaningful, most fundamental human experiences as "brainless" is no doubt part of the reason you struggle with having community. And, I'm guessing, why communities struggle with you.

Maybe I dont value community if I consider most people brainless? That's my conclusion of 30 years of life experience. I was traumatized at the age of 15 and didn't value community ever since. During that time I was dropped and ignored by society. Fake ass society, the only value you have as a human is what you can provide, you are never on the receiving end.

"grow up" is such a boomer thing to say

Because they grew up?

Maybe you should try it