You suffer from a common malady that you must be told what to do.

After decades you may develop your own mental mentor who tells you to do things and you listen, or maybe you will be an idle content your whole life (hey, direct personal familiarity here.)

You must find an objective or goal you will actually care to work towards at expense of your self satisfaction.

Or try another hobby/profession. Hardware sensors and the like are going through an auspicious time. Never before so cheap or plentiful. Get sensors and data flow going from everything commercial or civic.

You’ll have to learn discipline to become an independent contractor or proper business opportunist, otherwise you are a wage slave competitor like “everyone else.”